:D

20031228

yippees!
got new phone on friday night.
lol.
sony ericsson t610. lol.
now i have to work for my dad...
*sigh*
wanna sleep..sigh.
there's so much homework!!
my god.
o.O
the concert's tomorrow..
and i'm rotting away. lol.
i don't care..
i'm going to sleep now.
night!

life is like a sine graph =)
2:32 PM

20031226

lol! this is so funny!

I did it in 7 seconds.
I deserved an A+!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!
try it! lol.
happy boxing day!
*arbish. [K.O.!]*

life is like a sine graph =)
7:41 PM

20031225

wow!
i just saw those damn chio waves in australia on tv!
lol!
they're so cool!
like.
whoosh.
and people get washed around!
lol!!
and there's foam to replace snow.
in taiwan i think.
it's so cute!
but it's so irregular.
big blobs of foam plopping onto humans.
on the same spot.
erbs.
lol.
right now i'm watching some tv show.
its kinda boring.
sigh.

aww shucks.
i feel so mean.
am i supposed to say sorry?!
i know i'm very very mean.
i'm a big idiot to misunderstand again.
shucks.
but i still feel very angry!
dunno.
just leave it be.
if i'm supposed to say sorry then just tell me okay.

life is like a sine graph =)
10:54 PM

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

lol.
merry x'mas everyone!
hahaha.
spent this whole morning and early afternoon washing.
cleaning. polishing. my dad's car!
lol.
i'm doing it to earn money! to get my nu phone!
haha.
its so tiring!
yesterday i washed my dad's car.
and it was only washing!
my left arm got sprained.
today i washed again. then polished.
now both arms are dead.
and my feet are dead! lol.
i'm half dead anyway.
i don't plan on finishing my homework..ughhh.

merry x'mas to everybody!
[except that bitch]

life is like a sine graph =)
5:57 PM

see.
see see see.
see all you want.
i didn't colour it black.
cause.
I WANT EVERYBODY TO SEE IT.

why are you so sensitive!
are you jealous or something?
you big fat ass.
is there really a problem with ME linking brynn in MY BLOG?
THIS IS MY OWN BLOG. I CAN LINK ANYONE I WANT.
who do you think you are?!
DO YOU WANT TO CONTROL ME OR SOMETHING.
i have my own rights.
can you please step out of my own affairs.
why are you so unadaptable.
you don't give people a chance to be your friend,
you don't give others a chance to be happy,
you don't give even yourSELF a chance,
and you don't even give a chance for changes to happen and to let other people change!
WHY AM I STICKING TO YOU?!
WHY WAS I SO STUPID AT FIRST?!
WHY DID I EVEN BEFRIEND YOU!?
you totally suck.
you know.
i don't care.
your english and every other shitty subject is much better than mine.
right.
happy?
i don't care one single biT.
you can squabble all you want to.
and you can just tell the class that i'm such a failure.
and make me an outcast.
i don't care okay.
even if it means breaking up the four of us.
i don't care.
you can do WHATEVER FUCK you want.
i won't give a damn.
you can just take sharyl and emily away.
you can top the level a million times.
i don't care.
you know.
i'm very very angry.
and you know what.
if you do become the section leader next time.
i'm gonna torture you.
i'm gonna do really really mean things.
and i'm not going to care already.
i'm going to quit band if you DO become the SL.
just wait and see.
...
i don't understand.
why did i meet you at first.
Why did Fate arrange for us to meet.
i am really confused.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU!
and you know what.
i don't plan on understanding you.
genevieve seow ann ching.
please get this clear.
i really really am sick of whatever you've did to me.
i'm really very tired.
i can't help it.
honestly.
i hate you.
and anyway.
just keep this in mind.
even if we do patch up afterwards.
I WILL CONTINUE TO HATE YOU.
keep that in mind!
fuck you.

life is like a sine graph =)
5:31 PM

20031223

if you respect me and my own rights, do not read it.

why don't you trust me?!
why do you keep on thinking that way?!!
do you know you're putting a lot of stress on mE?!
you just assume that i'm hating you or whatever.
then you use that as an excuse and start breaking the friendship!
RIGHT?!
can you stop all this NONSENSE.
i am really sick and tired of 'do you hate me' questions!
i do NOT and stop asking me that stupid question or else i WILL!
WHY ARE YOU SO SENSITIVE!!!!!!!!
i'm so so sick of you and your attitude.
like today.
me and cindy just wanted to help you.
or else you'll faint halfway or something.
WE WANTED TO HELP YOU. and you just procastinated.
and SO? the time just went off like that and you USED THAT.
you USED the time and just dismissed it as 'no more time. cannot eat.'
I AM SICK OF YOUR ATTITUDE!!!
i've given you so many chances to just stop doing it and get into action.
but you JUST DON'T WANT TO!
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM!!
I AM TRYING TO HELP YOU AND YOU JUST DON'T WANT MY HELP!!
oh yeah right. you topped the level.
SO YOU WON'T NEED MY HELP!
I DON'T EVER WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN!!
I DON'T EVER WANNA HELP YOU AGAIN!!
you SENSITIVE pig.

i'm starting to hate you so so much.

sometimes i really wonder why i tried to help you.

[why are you reading this?! YOU DON'T RESPECT ME AT ALL, DO YOU?!]

ahh.
right.
i almost lost my clarinet.
haha.
was actually in my dad's car.
that's stupid.
anyway.
i don't wanna say anything anymore.
I'M TOO PISSED.

[you shouldn't even have asked that question.]

life is like a sine graph =)
10:18 PM

going through the concert songs were tough.
out of breath a lot of times.
=(
my reed broke.
i'm not gonna mention who or whatever.
or else SOMEBODY would get angry.
sucks man.
i'm so pissed okay.
dunearn bm+dm came along with their teach-i-c to time the songs.
oh well.
squeaked a LOT.
i'm so pissed.
so so pissed.
shucks.

i'm so sick and tired of this.
stop giving me the look.
i'm sick of this look!!
hey look.
i know i'm insensitive and inquisitive.
i know i'm a no-good bitch and a total suckass.
but you don't have to look at me like that.
i hate you!

- pissed -
- sad -
get lost.

life is like a sine graph =)
6:29 PM

20031222

yo!
had to stick with this template cause i found some really good ones!
but i dunno how to figure them out. -_________-"
anyway.
i've become too emotional! *strangles*
like. i cry everyday these days.
[that's odd.]
i cried cause of the souvenirs thingy.
practically cause for a lot of things anyway.
i cried so many times.
tuesday. wednesday. thursday. friday. saturday. sunday.
people would think i'm trying to attract attention.. =(
i hope not.
thanks to (---) and whoever who cheered me up. =)
oh well.
my dad doesn't want to get me a new phone cause i can't give him a good reason.
shucks.
i want a phone with a camera. *pout*
my mum says i just want the cam for leisure.
what shit. i want it to take pics of memorable times!
shucks.
no one understands me.
no one ever will.
-sad-
=(
-twists mouth-
i do so want the phone!
-frowns-
whatever.
the font is nice right?
heehee.
anyway.
there's some soppy chinese program on now.
its so *touching*.
and i haven't finished my homework.
besides. i'm so bored.
okayy.
shall wait for some interesting people to login!
=)
lol.
there's band tomorrow!

[7days]

life is like a sine graph =)
6:56 PM

20031215

yay!
i'm back from all the sand and water and salt!
and i'm alive and kicking!

didn't have time to pack. rushed off to school.
band was so tense.
had to be auditioned. was so scared.
but in the end i just had to play a major scale. and some wind+tree parts.
mrs chua keep asking about the bangkok trip.
ha. so cute.
she said she might be going there sometime soon. shrug.
anyway. went to eat at tiong. was forced to eat thai food.
(after 1 week of thai food i'm sick of it!)
food court's closed. warning! ha.
anyway. went to the chalet by cab. with xt, ivy, nurul and gen.
ivy was loaded. filthy rich man! -___-" ha.
stupid taxi driver. dropped us at block [A]. chalet's at block [P7].
walked like tracking. had to ask the receptionist.
in the end block [P] was just behind. ha. stupid.
we were surprised by the seniors. not their usual self.
i mean. laughing and smiling and all that. madeleine's an exception..
she's like that all the time lah.
we were locked out cos we didn't have some password. lame.
anyways we were let in all the same lah. the room was.
cute. cosy. cool. kinda small.
a lot of klarinettes came.
erm. shuying[bbq], debra[1night].
brynn, regina, joanne, liesel, grace and madeleine.
peiting, weiling and meiling.
xt[bbq], nurul, ivy, gen, me, sarina[1night], pam[1night].
yep.
moogled around for about an hour.
went to macs and 7eleven about 5.
a bike almost crashed into gen when we came back.
and a twig fell on her head. so qiao ok!
a TWIG. fell on her head.
like. ouch lah. haix.
then later she almost fell down. i think. something like that.
anyway. the bbq was on. had sausages. crabsticks. otak.
chicken. seaweed chicken. satay. corn. potato. stingray. prawn.
yep. a lot of junk. ha.
me, nurul and peiting keep on fighting for the tongs. ha.
then i kept on fighting with sarina for the food tray. ha.
lame.
but not a lot of pple ate. haha.
anyway. grace forced me to eat! and it was like.
uhh. threaten me. then i ran away.
and she said i was cute. -_______-""
chao lame. anyway.
brynn and joanne did most of the bbq-ing. so hardworking. ha.
when i was like helping around. shuying came along and said.
do you all need my majestic and wonderful help?
erts! so ego! just like brynn.
anyway. regina came at around 8.
someone (forgot who) asked me to bbq marshmellows for regina.
i think it was joanne. or brynn. or grace. dunno lah!!
haix.
then when i gave it to her and said joanne asked me to do it.
joanne was like hah? me?? -_________-""
and so it ended up with her mum as a byebye gift. -__-"
a whole batch of people went out to the beach at night.
oo so fun. yeah right.
the room was filled with sand and seawater and salt.
the sec2s and me and gen had to clean the whole room up.
so we locked all of them out. ha. housekeeping at work.
and we had to make them wash and wipe their legs.
anyway brynn slept damn early. ha.
ivy, nurul, gen, liesel and me woke her up by 'talking too loud'. ha.
around the 'campfire'. cute. the lamp i bought frm bkk. ha.
then liesel slept after talking about her 77-hour flight delay. wow. ha.
anyway my lamp went out. we were like screaming.
ha. anyway. went to macs with gen, ivy and peiting.
at one plus!! imagine that. so cool kay. ha.
went to sleep with gen at around 2. woke up at about 4.
gen looked different. and it turned out to be peiting sleeping next to me.
got a stupid shock ok! ha.
and i was sleeping so comfy when i suddenly noticed this pillow.
and i was like. uhh? pillow? i didn't have a pillow.
my pillow was..a towel. whose pillow?
dunno. so just turned around and tried to sleep.
saw brynn's fingernails. oo. long.
and her hair. like so messy. and ah. where's her pillow?
-_________________________________-""""""
i was like. ahh! shit. her pillow!
her head was like dropping. ha. and i was like.
ahhh. eeyuk. her pillow! and i dumped the pillow on her face.
ha! so lame. then she just turned around and put the pillow back.
and slept. like a pig! ha.
couldn't sleep until 6.
the poker girls slept at 5. ooo. woke up at 6.
so i just took back my sleeping bag. yep. and slept until seven.
ha. regina was on my left. joanne was on my right.
and when i woke up, they were STILL there.
so amazing. ha.
went cycling after waiting for everyone to wash up.
caused meiling to fall down. =(
i'm sorry meiling!! a thousand apologies!!
hope u'll forgive me.
cos i suggested to teach meiling how to cycle.
in the end i didn't hold the handle and so she fell into the mud.
i felt so guilty. cried in my sleeping bag after we came back.
and i cried myself to sleep! ha! i'm so wonderful.
slept for an hour. ha. anyway. grace looks cute when she's asleep. ha.
anyway. went to macs for lunch. the other batch was floating.
in the sea. duh. ta-pao-ed lunch for them cos the rain was pouring.
and SO. duhhh.
they dirtied the chalet again!!! arrgh.
the sec twos didn't seem to help. so me and gen just cleaned up the whole place.
joanne and liesel were like. why you two can't stop cleaning for a moment?!
haha.
so we just sat on the railings. and yeah. chatted.
then we noticed the towels which were out to dry were wet.
so we went to the lobby toilets to wash and dry them.
1 DRY towel was selling at 3 bucks at the reception.
they're good at sucking our money.
anyway. took a bloody long time.
but we were forced to go out. some woman came in and started to poop.
ugghhh. anyway. when we went back joanne was in the bath.
liesel was sleeping soundly with her legs on the railings.
ha. so cute. but regina woke her up. ha.
then she started to talk to me about seawater drying into salt on her skin.
haha.
anyway. cleaned up the whole place and went to bath.
this time much longer than the day before.
dunno why. haha.
anyway. joanne started to cook cheese sausages for the seniors.
and i was like. erms. maybe i can eat. cos maybe only a bit of cheese?
ha. then i was asking liesel. is there any cheese in there?
and she was like. dunno. can't see anything. but there's the taste.
and i was like so upset. ha. so we went to the shop at the lobby.
and bought cup noodles! ha! and it was only about 6.
me and gen bought like 3 cups each.
joanne was like wah. its so early and you all hungry liaos?
and we were like. ha. see you all eat so we get hungry lah.
hahaha. but after that i got angry at gen.
for like using that look on me again. i really hate that look.
i was just playing with ivy. didn't even hurt her or anything.
right. anything lah. its my fault anyways.
honestly i've seen it for like. a lot of times.
a look that gives you the impression that you're the most wicked person.
that you're the biggest idiot and you totally suck.
that you're so mean to everyone and you're the terrorist.
yeah. like saying 'you're the worst person i ever met.
on the face of this earth'. right.
so i locked myself in the toilet. until brynn chased me out. right.
i was so angry. i cried again. dammit.
but anyway. slept again. ha! i cried myself to sleep again! my god.
i'm so amazing. right. zzzt.
then lateron there was section activity.
so cute! we lit up about 100 candles. all around the brick 'hedge'.
haha. so cute. we sat around and talked.
yeah. then we played truth or dare!
there were 3 dares..ivy, joanne and brynn.
ivy had to shout out jingle bell's verse into the other chalets.
so maluating! ha. joanne had to wrap herself in a blanket.
and ask some guys 'have u seen this woman'.
pointing to a newspaper lah.
haha. it was so maluating. but anyway she didn't want the blanket.
so me and gen was like. ahhhhh! the blanket!!
don't let it touch the floor! and then we saved it. duh.
so silly. brynn had to find some guy and take a pic with him.
and she and liesel were gone for like so long.
they went to the beach cos brynn didn't like any guys in the chalets.
when they came back the photo was like.
brynn was 1 metre away from the 'guy'.
and got a zhor tang guy in the middle.
ha. so funny. anyway. just played with whistling sparklers.
and coloured ones too. ha. so fun!
a lot of smoke though. maybe pple thought we were sending smoke signals.
ha. lame. anyway. people tucked in early.
they were sleepy from the day before. haha.
arrgh! grace, madeleine and ivy got me addicted to mvp qing ren.
and its like. such a boring show! i dunno why i'm addicted to it.
we were watching until we wanted to sleep lor.
and it was the 19th episode.
there were 22 episodes. and each episode was 1 hour.
if we continued to watch everything then we'd be sleeping at 3.
so we just watched episode 22. the first half.
cos the first half was nicer. ha.
anyway brynn was at the beach or something. alone.
the rest got all worried about her. so grace and regina forced her to come back.
ha. anyway. i slept like a log after the mvp qing ren.
totally! from 1 to 7 plus. gosh. a record! i thought i would wake up.
when i woke up i was like. check time.
my tian. 7 liaos?! what about sunrise?! did i miss it?!
and then grace moved me up to her place. cos i was sleeping on the floor lah.
anyway the floor was SO damn nice to sleep on that night.
ha. and then i was like. uhhh. brynn's next to me. better sleep.
or else get kicked. or punched. ha.
but i WAS kicked. and punched. and my sleeping bag almost fell off the bed.
and i was like. ahh. gonna drop off liao.
grace and joanne were looking for the sugar. to put on the butter.
to put on the bread. for our breakfast.
and the sugar was brynn's lah. then they couldn't find it.
so they were asking brynn where's the sugar.
i was half asleep lah. but i heard them. they were like.
brynn. where's the sugar. brynn wake up and give us the sugar.
then can sleep. the sugar's not on the table. and not in your bag.
and brynn was like uhhhhh.
then joanne was like.
brynn!! wake up!! the chalet's on fire and we need the sugar to put the fire out!!
and i was like laughing in my half-asleepness.
haha. so funny lor. quite a lot of people heard it.
and so they were like huh. whats going on.
haha. so funny. in the end they got the sugar after brynn woke up and gave it to them.
haha. destroyed brynn's dreams. ha.
anyway. packed up and went off.
felt very nauseaous. whatever. felt like i had high fever.
but it was alright once we entered the mrt.
ha. we had to go to pasir ris then back to wherever. cos the train was full.
and liesel went off first cos we didn't know the other train was full.
so when we reached her stop they called her handphone.
and they were like saying.
liesel!! we can see you! hahaha!! we're on the mrt!!
and then we could see liesel turn back and try to look for us.
haha! so cute!
anyway we were playing concentration on the mrt.
and people were like. stAring.
errbs. who are all these girls. why do they have so much stuff.
and why are they playing some game in the mrt.
and all that lah. ha. i guess we were maluated.
anyway. went to bugis to eat macs for lunch.
i'm sick of macs!!!!!
gosh. anyway me, gen, grace and brynn were in the toilet.
and when brynn was inside we said we'd leave her.
and then she was like u dare.
then we kept real quiet near the door. and talked in whispers.
then later we heard her say. you all can stop whispering now.
and we were like giggling quietly in the toilet.
so lame. ha. anyway. went back home lah.
reached home at about 2. was so tired.
but couldn't sleep. dunno why.
mum scolded me about eating too much macs.
and putting the dirty clothes with the clean clothes.
haha. anyway. brynn was mysteriously added to my msn contacts.
-_-" anyway. slept early. went to school.
the sectionals were kinda sian.
then my clarinet suddenly got bust. and couldn't play any sound.
for like ages. erbs. then i got so angry. started to badmood.
then couldn't find mr chua. happened to talk to lilian about the souvenirs.
then i felt so angry and pissed and pressurized.
so i think i frightened lilian by just crying suddenly.
ha. sorry lilian. haix. all those unhappy things just like pop.
then went to hug emily.
so dammit pissed with everything in the world.
then i was like crying through the break.
then the seniors somehow came and consoled and yadda yadda.
then had to look for mr chua.
then he was like out of school?!?!!
so i started to cry again. dammit.
then i just hugged cindy and asked her to make me laugh.
and then i didn't know if i was laughing or crying.
kinda like both.
but in the end it was ok.
some stupid screw popped out and was so loose. air leakage.
so mr chua fixed it. ha. so kind.
then i was so happy. ha. so lame.
then just joined in and we went through all the songs.
right. yep.
then packup and all that lah.
the souvenirs are like really very little lor.
haix.
anyway. came back home after lunch at BK.
mum scolded again.
and now i'm grounded from fast food for the next three weeks.
anyway.
mum was nagging about the 88.85 bucks that the band owes.
she doesn't trust joanne ok!
dammit my mum doesn't trust the band's treasurer and DM.
i was like so angry.
i was screaming at my mum. i trust joanne and lilian ok.
and now here comes my mum saying that there's something fishy.
she assumed that joanne took all the money from the band and USED it herself.
i just blew up and said if joanne was not reliable why'd she become the treasurer.
and my mum said that the bankers and all that stole billions of bucks.
like. forgery and cheating.
and i was fuming mad that my mum didn't trust me or my seniors.
i cried again. like shit lah.
and then my mum said that if i were not to get the money by thursday..
i'd have to do something real mean..to lilian and joanne..
i don't wanna do it. i don't wanna do this kinda thing.
i don't care. i'm trusting them and if this mum wants the money.
i'll give her my savings.
dammit.
anyway.
its kinda late.
tomorrow need to try on band u.
kays.
time to sleep.
i'm so tired..
still lacking sleep...
arrgh.
nites!

[section chalet rocks!!]

life is like a sine graph =)
9:56 PM

20031212

ha!
back frm bangkok.
tired man..
sorry to everybody!!
sorry emily i couldn't get your harvest moon.
sorry zhiying i couldn't get your album.
sorry so and so i couldn't get your thingy thing.
yadda yadda.
sighhh.
god.
i bought 3 wallets!
which will last for...
supposedly 3 years. -________-
bought a pc game.
bloody roar 4.
it rocks.
bought ice age.
bought alotalotalot of junk.
gosh.
everything is dammit cheap there.
S$1 = 20 baht.
ha!
made 1 mistake..
bought this cute little lamp which cost 220 baht.
i thought i was only about a buck.
but it was actually 10 bucks.
so..
haha.
kinda..in trouble.
heh.
okayy.
shall type out all the junk i bought.
in chronological order.
lol.

[first day]
was really pissed at the airplane food.
it sucked ok!
totally.
bought nothing.
ate dinner at coca.
steamboat rocks.

[second day]
nothing.
central is getting boring.
the tops food mall is starting to suck.
the chicken rice standard deteorated.
dropped man.
totally.
and the grape juice!!
my tian.
i waited for this grape juice.
i waited for a year!
i always drank the grape juice.
always.
and it was so yummy.
and now its gone.
replaced by fanta.
dang it man.
jin.
you're not gonna like this.

[third day]
bought pants pants pants.
from mbk.
and a pc game.
walked until legs shivering.
totally huge.
walked lvls 2, 3, 4, 6.
for ur info, lvl 5 is furniture stuff.
ate at zen.
jap restaurant.
their gyoza and tempura sucks.

[fourth day]
went to bangkok's chinatown.
in a pickup truck from dad's company.
air con was really cold.
anyway.
it was a bit like our chinatown.
but much dustier.
much dirtier.
eeyuh.
and a trillion beggars.
there was one poor beggar.
looked like an actress.
gosh.
i felt so sad.
but so many pple pushing us around.
she got swept away by the crowd.
and i couldn't take out my money to donate.
hai.
=(
a lot of small lanes.
really small.
like those xiao xiang in china.
all around pple selling toys.
wallets.
chains.
jewelery.
accessories.
yadda yadda.
a lot of nonsense.
there were a lot of road-side-stalls.
there was even one selling pancakes.
really cute pancakes.
really small.
size of a small cd.
selling for 1 baht each.
which is 5 sing cents.
haha.
bought 2 wallets from there.
wahaha.
took a taxi back to the hotel.
the taxi got stopped by the police.
for speeding.
duhh.
he got angry.
sped every more.
got caught in traffic jam.
seems like mrs chua has a good 6th sense.
she said the traffic would be bad.
anyway.
ate the buffet at the coffee hse.
i'm getting fatter.
and i'm starting to avoid the weighing mach.
i'm getting hungry!!
kkk dun talk about food.

[fifth day]
went to central.
bought..

stuffed toy owl.
nice pillow.
slippers.
cute lamp keychain (mistAke!!).

yep.
thats about all.
went to mbk.
met nok jiejie at the hotel next door.
p-neong drove us to their hse.
the air con was also very cold.
their baby was so cute.
baby boy.
then we went to this really cool restaurant at the countryside.
it was sitting on the bay..like. above the seawater.
cool wind..
breeze..
great lunch!
the best i've had in months.
had to sit the thai style.
kneel to the side.
but haha in the end we all sat cross legged.
too tired..
really great restaurant.
there were birds in a cage.
and a squirrel in another.
for display lah.
cute.
the squirrel ate a lime my dad gave it.
ate it like a nut.
so cute.
anyway.
they drove us back after going to a dept store.
they gave me a present.
a bear keychain.
i'm giving it to jin.
anyway.
was so full.
until..about 9pm in bkk?
which is 10 pm in singapore.
ate cup noodles.
heh.

[sixth day]
went to robinsons.
bought..

a pair of nu shoes.
another wallet.

was so tired out by walking all around with my dad.
stuck at the 'relax corner' in robinsons.
went to mbk.
bought..

pants. 4.
slingbag (a waste actually..there was a nicer one!)
pants. 1.

rubbish.
nonsense.
walked lvl 4, 6, 7.
i didn't walk lvl 1!! =(
next year must walk.
and anyway.
ate jap lunch at fuji.
their tempura and sushi sucks!
but their katsudon rocked.
went back to the hotel.
had dinner at coca again.
like the first day.
as i said.
steamboat rocks.
more like..
steamboat in thailand rocks.
the service rocks.
the noodles rock.
the egg rocked.
the chicken (mm fresh!) rocks.
the fish paste rocks.
the spring onion pancake rocks.
the soya sauce. rocks man!
anyway.
saw a pair of pups.
for sale.
500 baht.
25 bucks.
kinda cheap.
cute little pups.
like..
3 weeks old.
one black.
one white.
ha.

[last day]
had macs for breakfast.
went to a cotton shop.
went there before a few days before.
bought lots of stuff..

pyjamas.
shirt.
shorts.
towels.

only bought socks today.
anyway.
went to the supermart.
bought cute napkins.
and a bottle of nestea.
actually i wanted the bottle only.
haha.
anyway.
went to the airport in the hotel limo.
cool.
but the air con was also really cold.
thai cars are really cold man..
-________-"
checked in and all that.
my scissors got confiscated!
my tian.
they can see even the tiny winy little scissors.
which was in my pencilcase.
and my pencil case was squashed by my junk.
and they can see it in the scan.
good.
ha.
my scissors....
...............................
feeling kinda vengeful now.
my scissors.
hey, do i look like i'm someone who can hijack a plane.
or kill people.
with a mere scissors.
i'm a decent person ok.
and i'm just a kid!
ok a teen.
and i don't rebel.
and my scissors isn't as sharp.
now i can't get it back.
nevermind.
can get another one.
humph.
grrh.
anyway.
the airplane food wasn't so bad.
so so.
but i'm getting hungry.
nevermind.
shall eat some bread tomorrow morning.
right.
its late.
nearing 12.
but i'm jetlacking..
its only about 10.30 in bangkok.
and in my head also.
ok.
nites everybody.

[bangkok..truly asia!]
[and i'm saying that MALAYSIA SUCKS LIKE SHIT]
[bangkok rocks~~]
[malaysia is just a stupid place]
[they assume they're truly asia]
[but bangkok rocks man!]

life is like a sine graph =)
11:29 PM

20031206

shopping list:
*harvest moon bumper pack (whatever there is) [emily]
*energy album [zhiying]
*slingbag (its time i got a new one!)
*wallet (i've been waiting to get one!!)
*PC games!!
*DVD movies
*gb games?
*other chindogu

haha!!

life is like a sine graph =)
7:38 PM

heylo~~
me in bangkok now!
just reached here a couple of hours ago.
haix..
feel so maluated and sad..
today the car drove in to the service road where the rest were starting to have combined.
which is like.
du-uh.
everybody see me get in.
like shit lah.
so malu-ed!
haix.
cried on the way to the airport.
i'll miss you, my dear clarinet.
sighx.
hai..
so sad.
anyway, i almost lost my ring!!
emily!! do u see this??
i ALMOST lost my ring!!
toots.
left it on the lunch tray on the airplane.
nice air hoster returned it.
kinda looked like he was proposing to me.
yeesh.
-_-"
okayy.
time for dinner!
time in bangkok now is 6.30pm.
which is 1 hr earlier.
yadda yadda.
tmr going shopping!
and everyday also lah.
hahaha.
dinner time!
[ring~]

[RO rocks my life man! just that this laptop keys suck lah..]

life is like a sine graph =)
7:32 PM

20031204

ohhkay.
long time no post!
hee.
yeps.
went to malacca from the 23rd to the 26th.
bought like..9 pc games to play.
bahaha.
bloody roar 2 rocks like shit!
yeah man.
had sectionals on thursday.
yeps..
and band prac on tuesday..
and today too.
yadda yadda.
bought friendship rings for us!
haha.
so cute.
can spin one.
hahaha.
lame.
oh well.
if you think i am an honest person then read it.
if not then shut the toot up and get lost.

warning number one.
this is my opinion and not yours so you're not supposed to correct it.
warning number two.
i am not sucking up to seniors.
warning number three.
this is another reminder that it is my opinion.

brynn was unhappy last wk..
dunno how to improve lah.
we're like so down-in-the-dopes and so lan-in-clarinet.
i think she's got enough of us.
i know she's trying her best to teach us lah.
but i dunno lah..
how the others are gonna improve..
its all up to themselves..
all i know that i've improved up to what i expected.
and now i'm gonna improve as much as possible.
i want brynn to be happy with us.
not in the sucking-up sense.
i want brynn to be happy with our playing.
our playing is like..
the kind of playing that when you just got your score.
new and fresh out from the oven.
i mean photocopier.
honestly i don't reckon many of us go home and practice.
with the thought of improving ASAP for the concert.
i don't see any determination or any, in a sense, 'energy'.
the determination and 'energy' to do well is not there.
i want it to be there.
i know it deep down in my heart that i don't want to mess up the whole concert by squeaking.
and i know if i practice hard, i won't squeak at all.
like lilian said today, if you want it, you'll get it.
or was it if you want it to happen, it will happen.
just like that lah.
with these words, i think its really time to wake up.
we shouldn't just..lag and talk. we're supposed to practice.
i know we don't even get the chance to lag or talk during sectionals lah.
but during sectionals..
i really honestly do not think that there's been any improvement.
i mean..i don't see myself picturing others practicing at home.
they just come..play..go home.
come, play, go home.
come, play, go home.
like that!
i don't want anybody to screw up the concert.
but right now nobody's doing their part to keep on improving.
not like i am doing this and that and i'm so great.
at least i try and practice, practice the scales and running notes.
all those dynamics, articulation and yadda yadda.
i want brynn to be happy with our playing.
i have never seen brynn truly happy with us.
i want to have this opportunity to see it.
not like i want to suck up to her and all that.
i want her to enjoy sectionals.
and i want everybody else to enjoy it too.
sectionals is when a section PLAYS TOGETHER.
we're not.
we're always divided into two grps.
sec ones and the rest.
i know we're really bad.
i want us to improve.
but what the f*ck.
nobody's giving a damn about this upcoming concert.
this concert is important..
why doesn't everybody xing xing yi xia and play well?
people..i want you all to IMPROVE.
this is not for me myself and i..
its for everybody's sake..and the band's sake..
and i'm not trying to boss you around..
this is for the sake of everyone..get it?
i hope you all will improve as much as possible before the concert.
i really want to see it..
i really want to see all of us improve..
and not just only one or two..
ALL OF US..
lets do it together..
and let brynn be happy with our playing..
won't that be great?
[practice makes perfect]

okay.
that's..
nothing lah.
RO time!

[ice age rocks like..shit!]

life is like a sine graph =)
3:02 PM