:D

20040120

awrite! today rocked!
heh. went out with gen ivy meiling and debbie~
well we just walked around practically nowhere..
kinda wasted time. oh well.
went to mos burgers for lunch. mm!
then rushed off to far east.
gen had to look for her shoe thing.
and she wanted to take the shiny neos there.
but it seemed that what ivy had repeated again and again didn't get into any of our heads.
the shiny neos machine moved to cineleisure.
oh well!
so just went there to slack.
and took a hell of a long time to decide whether to go heeren.
and meiling was so enthu about taking neos!
haha! yeek! hahahah.
so went to heeren.
walked around.
had to rush.
so took 8beam. bleargh.
maybe next time we'll take meimiao.
but arrgh. all sucks the same.
well. went home at around 5.
talked to meiling a lot.
and had to wait for my freaking dad for 20 minutes.
and i've just started to prac on my clarinet.
my hands are so tired.
my stomach's growling.
talk about growling.
next week's the start of my crash diet.
anyone see me eating oily food or whatever.
just come and slap me across the face.
and i'm not supposed to eat at all.
oh well!!
freak dad just said eat out.
shucks!
oh well.

oh! i suddenly remembered.
ahh serping is so sweet.
i was so worried when i asked her about cindy's eupho.
i guess it was either i spoke too softly or her ears need digging.
haha. had to repeat what i said three times.
then she said orrrrh. and patted me on the back.
and said ah! nevermind lah! no problem! don't worry kay!
relax relax! -pat-
haha. so sweet.
thank god.

life is like a sine graph =)
8:05 PM

20040119

things haven't been going on too well these days..
had to paint the silly gate on sunday.
painted it white.
i guess there're drips of white splots everywhere.
some got onto my hair and face and hands. bleargh.
oh. one fun thing is. i found a flute in my house!
yay yay. its a cute little wooden flute.
and its called something like di zi.
dunno. something related to the di zi.
a piece of some sort of thin paper is supposed to cover the second hole.
and you blow. yep. and the cover the other holes! gong.
lol. you have to blow it like a real flute.
with the mouthing and all that.
real cute! the pitch is really high. and it freaks my fish out. heh.
anyway. went to school kinda late.
oh well. i suppose its kinda boring in the mornings.
didn't i even notice that last year?!
alright, nevermind..
then the subjects were all boring. as usual.
hahaha i am getting so happy~
i've found, [at last], a one true friend!
and she is sitting right next to me!! =D
-rejoice rejoice-
hallelujah!
oh well.
band was..-no comment-.
i'm trying to get used to my new partner!
yo partner sarina!
haha. its so cute okay.
- yo partner!
= yo partner!
- help me take my case partner!
= sure partner!
- thanks partner!
= welcome partner!
- help me wash my mouthpiece partner!
= okay partner!
- thanks partner!
= welcome partner!
- love ya partner!
= love ya too partner!
eeeee so rou ma. hahaha.
but yay! starting to be fun with sarina. yepps!
okay~ meiling has just made me very happy.
tomorrow i'm going out to shop! yay yay.
i'm feeling so happy!
i want to feel like that always.
mm. right.
i'm so happy!!!!

life is like a sine graph =)
10:00 PM

20040117

oh well.
was in a pretty good mood just now.
just read some depressing blog.
and i'm getting rather depressed too.
well. shall try to spew every happy thing out first.
then remain nasty for the rest of the night.

well. listening to happy march now.
oh. it just ended. right now its fiefoerniek.

well. shall talk about a few days back.
got quite happy after discovering my injuries are healing really quick.
thank you lord for giving me the ability to heal. amen.
band on thursday was. okay.
averagely alright.
it was just normal. perhaps 10 percent more to the fun side.
i guess i got to know ivy and xingtong better.
they're really sweet kids. =)
they're really cute too. heheh.
xingtong saw cherlynn walking barefoot with brynn.
and she was saying that it was scary cause walking barefoot may cause worms to go inside your feet.
like walking around. worms and bacteria from the ground creep in.
and fingers also. whatever.
and she made me laugh really hard.
i suppose its the first time i laughed that hard this year.
shall try not to be too moody this year.
thanks xingtong.
anyway. the seniors springcleaned the band room.
and now we'll have to take off our shoes again.
my mum's complaining about dirty socks.
oh well. =/
i still think serping is really very very angry at me.
i'm scared.
help.
somebody hug me and protect me.
no.
i musn't be a coward.
why am i reacting like that?
i must be responsible for my actions.
[wow!! mr loh i can actually remember what you repeated a gazillion times in primary 5 and 6!]
i shall do whatever i am supposed to do.

[thanks for understanding..]
oh well.
i really think she's very nice.
she's so caring.
they're so caring.
i suppose they're just concerened.
nothing to do with me.
they're just concerned about the section.
cause i'm just a lousy bitch.
if they did care for me..why would they?
i don't understand..
don't make me confused..
i don't know how to feel..
should i feel sarcastic..
or should i feel loved?
i don't know..
i'm so confused..
can you make it clear to me?

oh well.
friday was really not that bad too.
i guess i totally slacked during the curriculum time.
i think i need toothpicks. for opening my eyes.
and i honestly think all teachers are teenage-abusers.
they abuse our teen life with tons of homework.
and they assign homework as if assigning generous stacks of hay to cows and oxes to munch on.
do they really think we feed on steriods and don't ever sleep.
perhaps they think we're solar panels. we take in lots and lots of sunlight in the day.
don't we? i'm quite tan.
and then all the energy produced by this lovely sunlight is used to do nothing.
and so they give us endless piles of homework to keep us busy.
and let the energy be used in a 'good way'.
and by the time we sleep, we're just having some rest after using up 90 percent of the solar energy.
then the 10 percent is for walking and all that.
and by the time we've walked it all off. the sun's out.
and so we shall take in more and more solar energy to do the upcoming homework.
wow. so they've planned it all out.
no wonder the classroom lights are really big.
and dim-mable.
so we're still taking in solar energy when they flash transparencies.
eg. dimming the lights enough for us to still take in the solar energy and see the stuff in the transparency.
oh well.
i'm really complaining too much about homework.
and why am i so calculative. sigh.
i guess i should stop.
making you read this is too much of a tire.
well.
really sorry.

on friday afternoon we stayed back and decorated the classroom.
it was really great - the teamwork and all that.
i guess i'm becoming closer and closer to qiuyi.
we're like the best of friends now.
i hope we'll remain that way forever. =)
oh well..we'll just have to part next year..
don't think about it, sam.
you've been thinking too much.
bloddy too much.
oh well.
lets see.
right! we were a little late for the springcleaning.
so oh well.
we went around finding some rags.
and found some behind the mini art forum.
the cleaning auntie was reciting some nonsense in canto.
haha. kinda cute you know.
well we started off with cleaning the windows.
which was particularly fun! lol.
perhaps i shall be a lowly window cleaner when i grow up.
and all of you will have to tell me when your windows are dirty!
that way i can help you to clean it for 50 percent discount!
and also we'll get to catch up on what's up!
lol. well maybe not.
cause by then all of you would have hated me so much.
you wouldn't even know what stupid occupation i had.
and you wouldn't even want to know me.
cause i'm just some stranger window cleaner.
oh well!!
just wiped the windows and all that..
then realised it was still dusty.
and the top part wasn't wiped.
so opened all the window panes.
and started wiping.
when we finally finished.
we just closed the window panes.
and upon closing the top window pane at the left hand corner.
lots and lots of dust just came flying down.
which was like.
oh. lets wipe again.
and we haven't wiped the inside.
oh. the inside can't be wiped cause there's this stupid gate there.
so we opened all the windows and started cleaning the whole window panes.
up side and down side.
and the plastic and metal and the paint all around it.
which is like the whole window frame.
and when we finally finished.
it was like. so clean!
had this proud feeling for the first time this year.
hi-5 qiuyi! 1 and a half hours not gone to waste!
oh well.
we had a rest. then we started cleaning the back.
yep. it was quite clean anyway.
then we cleaned the doors.
and qiuyi was totally --zzzzt--.
sorry! haha..tired you out.
so i just cleaned the whole lot..
the door frame and everything.
lala.
its so clean now!
our class looks totally clean on the outside!
my tian. we must maintain this lovely cleanliness.
duty girls! sweep the floors and rub the boards and everything else. now!! =D
heheh.
shan't get too carried away.
okay..i left quite early. then went to orchard for tuition.
for about 2 hours. sighh.
there's compo to do.
oh well. beats me missing out on the campfire night last week.
anyway. had a soppy dinner.
really soppy one too.
was actually sitting somewhere really hot.
then shifted to somewhere cool.
which became totally freezing.
and all the food became cold.
good thing i had japanese udon.
the soup didn't get cold that easily.
and the fried carrot cake was totally cold.
like out of the fridge.
goodness.
oh well.

band today was alright.
i guess this is the feeling that you get when the sec fours won't be here.
its kinda empty.
oh well.
had selfprac and all that.
me and xt were under meiling. =)
i think a few people were kinda bushuang at me.
oh well.
we practiced the same two songs.
yepp.
then we had break. meiling i know you were very hungry! >=)
a few people i DIDN'T KNOW were singing the four concert songs at the top of their voices.
i don't know them.
i've NEVER SEEN THEM BEFORE.
that was a very nice white lie.
oh well.
had sectionals and it was at that very point that i started to feel very sleepy.
and everyone seemed to, too.
and people were dozing around.
the sec threes all had a turn at taking us.
and in the middle of singex we totally had to have a break.
and peiting gave us one =)
thanks.
i slept. totally. hai. didn't know why i was so sleepy.
then washed face. and all that. then we continued.
then we were in a middle of a song. all the sec fours came back.
so we switched songs. heheh.
anyway. discussed about the one-stand-one-book system.
and it seemed that genevieve chose xingtong as her partner for the next three years.
i totally do not have any right to change her choice.
but i just feel odd that she would want to take xt instead of me.
i know i sound really bitchy about it.
but its just odd.
out of me, xt and sarina, she chose xt.
alright, she doesn't really take a liking to sarina.
but. alright nevermind.
i'm really getting bitchy about it.
right now sarina has her hands on xt already, so genevieve has to give xt up.
and take me instead.
i know she's totally fuming about having me.
cause i know very well that she hates me a lot.
ahh. well.
i myself would rather partner ivy or xt.
but they just hate me like i'm their rival.
i don't know.
sorry genevieve.
i'm really sorry you're stuck with me for the next three years.
i'm really very very sorry about you getting me.
i'll try to make arrangements for you to partner xt alright.
and then i'll have to partner sarina. okay?
oh well.

i think i'm drifting farther and farther from emily.
i dunno.
it seemed normal when she was absent.
and i totally have no idea why she and gen went out without me.
not like i'm such a freaking bitch to squeeze in and follow without invitation.
but i just wonder why.
they always asked me if they were going out.
and the strange thing is.
emily has been totally avoiding me.
i don't know.
maybe mood swings.
i just don't understand.
and today i was really mad at them.
honestly.
not just cause they were going out without me.
but because they ran away.
me and ivy and xingtong were running after them.
asking whether they wanted to have a lift with us in a taxi.
and you know what.
they saw us and emily started running.
i'm really really very angry about it.
we weren't having mischieveous means or whatever.
we actually had the heart to run after them and ask if they wanted a ride!
my goodness.
i don't believe it.
and they actually ran away.
unbelievable.
helloo. we. wanted. to. help.
and. you. ran. away.
how disappointing it is! do you know how it pierced my heart!
the anger! the hatred! the blackness! the thick blackness of hatred and anger! boiling at 7942167346 degrees!
freakingly angry now.
oh and you know what.
they kindly turned down the offer.
and walked off happily like nothing happened.
AND totally do not care or notice that their friend isn't exactly very satisfied with what had happened 11.4 seconds ago.
how angry! how angry can you be if YOU ran after your best friends with means of helping them!
and they scatter away like frightened chickens! AND turn down your offer when you finally stop them!
how angry can YOU be! tell me!
shucks.
i really do NOT want to kick up a fuss, but it seems that i have been bitching about for the past half hour.
in fact. i've been bitching the whole time.
i just can't help it okay.
its just getting so heaty around here.
and. for your info. your friend is not exactly going to continue with all this nonsense happening.
i hate it.
i hate it. i hate it i hate it.
sorry.

well. kinda in a badd mood again. honestly. yuck. wuck. grubbel. whats with the nonsense.

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9:02 PM

20040114

there's so much freaking shit to do.
this sucky english project.
this totally extra math homework.
and that stupid art.
art! my god.
i'm in a very very horrible mood.
my legs and throat are giving me a headache.
chao itchy knees.
damn sore throat.
splitting headache.
arrgh.
met that goodfernuttin bitch again today.
so she takes 106 home.
suckass.
haaix. gtg.
legs damn suan. grrh.

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9:53 PM

20040113

damn pissed at some sec ones.
don't know anything then just babble and shoot like heck.
freaking shits.
they were like. standing in front of me.
then the two of them were like.
'walao. this idiot is a senior.'
then started to look at my feet.
'i think she's faking that injury.'
then points to my shoes.
(says aloud)
'how come her shoes have purple. i thought they said cannot have purple.'
'ya hor. navy blue, black, white, grey only leh.'
what the hell!! do they even know what is FIFTY CENTS!
FIFTY CENTS!! what the heck..they think they know everything in the world.
suckers. hate them. TUCK YOUR SHIRTS OUT AUNTIE. my god.
and your skirt. they're like reaching your socks.
perhaps you can become an old hag from ancient china who collects tea leaves everyday at 6am.
freaking sec ones.
i am totally glad that i made a vow that i would hate all the sec ones except my mortals.

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8:44 PM

20040112

shucks..i'm so stupid..
why did i go and knock down cindy's eupho??!!
i am so useless..
why didn't i listen to brynn or meiling or weiling or sarina..or even wanteng??!!
i'm sorry..
i'm so useless..i don't know what to do..
why should a cripple like ME go walking between the euphoniums.
what the hell was i thinking!
why am i so stubborn!
i hate myself.
i'm so useless.
can't play anything.
can't play scale study. appregios. intervals. etudes.
i totally suck.
i hate myself!
why why why!!
i wanna kill myself.
you all go away.

life is like a sine graph =)
9:37 PM

20040111

hellos!
friday and saturday rocked~
the campfire was like so so cool.
well there was some mistake in happy march.
but we played well! =)
i will follow him was a success =P
well. went hyper and everything after screaming for c2.
then just stayed around the band room.
sabotaging pamela.
lol!!
you should have seen the people stare at her.
hahahaha!
oh wells. me and em created some silly song.
out of i will follow him.
which was like totally gong.
then people were staring. haha!
anyway. went home and everything.
slept a good sleep.
(okay that was a funny sentence. o_0)
then was kinda late on saturday.
cause of my stupid stupid stupid crippled knees.
oh well.
guess i was badmooding.
totally.
dunno lah.
just feeling very very very angry at some particular people.
well nevermind.
lateron some people weren't really fair to meiling.
oh well.
got pamela as teach.
just practiced blues and singex.
well.
then cca day started without notice.
so. just went around and la ren.
like. yell in the rotunda 'join band!!!'.
and some people were like. walaos.
oh well.
stupid stupid stupid crippled knees' bandage came off.
and had to tahan for like. 5 hours.
nevermind.
well. ran around lah.
got totally hyper again when the band started playing.
so just screamed 'join band!!!!'
and THAT FREAKING STUPID FUCKING ASS BITCH just came along.
for no particular reason.
wearing the totally spastic canoe jacket.
and said. can you girls stop screaming.
its because of you people screaming thats why the band can't play.
i was like. whAT THE HECK.
then she just said stop screaming okay.
and i was like fine. -murmur murmur-
what the hell right.
we scream and the band can't play.
hellO. we scream when the band is NOT playing.
and even so. what does it got to do with the band?
what the hell.
canoe fucks like hell.
totally.
especially that stupid teach. downright bitchy.
found out later that its cause of the parents meeting session.
WELL.
even if its the parents meeting session.
tell us lar! why say that 'its cause of your screaming the band can't play well'.
what logic is that?!
and you freaking also told off the band and SO.
we can't scream and we can't play.
what the fuck are you trying to do..control crescent cca day?
your freaking pupils also scream.
what logic is that?? what freaking logic is that?!
the guides screamed. the redcross screamed.
so? we can't scream and they can?
you big fatass bitch.
i hate you. get outta my way.
anyway. just finished up some souvenirs.
joanne!! see. still got a lot of leftovers.
so i suppose you guys can take the lot la.
or distribute to the other ccas. lol.
anyway. dunno if my mortal's joining band.
her mum doesn't want her to =(
oh well.
its so fun! i'm talking to my mortal face to face.
and i said her angel was in band!
hahaha. and she was like. you?? long hair..no specs..
and i was like -panic panic- nononoo. i'm her friend.
hahahahaa! so cute right. oh well.
it was so fun! haha.
the band played after two i guess.
and we were pulling people around la.
hahaha.
cca day was fun~~
went out to orchard with peiting meiling zhiying jessica xt and ivy.
ivy left damn early =(
then meiling and xt followed me to the pharmacy.
mum helped with bandage.
went to breeks' (so thats where band ppl like to go to).
and i was like. fed by zhiying. bleh.
then ordered something small. shared with meiling.
xt treated us to a big blob of mashed potato each.
lol. hahaha.
then xt meiling and i went to the toilet.
then when we came back zhiying was like.
hello. welcome to breeks.
i was like. erbs. thankyou.
so erbs!!
anyway. went to buy lotsa goodies. *twink.
then needed money for neoprint.
and we all got into the machine.
then we were like.
money leh?
then we had to go out of the machine.
so malu!! hahahaa.
anyway. went home la.
so fun!! yesterday was so so fun.
haha. =)
well. gotta go. night~

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9:05 PM

20040107

life is like a sine graph =)
8:41 PM

20040103

Which goddess are you? Brought to you by Unknown Brushes

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5:15 PM

anyway! i just remembered. i saw catherine lim at centrepoint yesterday!
=D lol. so white! and skinny. lol. love her books!

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5:02 PM

some sales assistant discovered i have some problem with my feet!
lol. was buying some shoes yest.
then she realized it when she was measuring my shoes.
seems that my bone is not in line with my foot.
slanting inwards. eew.
have to go for treatment.
lol. might have to use a wheelchair in future.
ohwells. =(

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11:25 AM

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
well. first day of school.
boring. as usual.
lol. mrs neo as science teach. shucks.
-mean look-
goh weesuan still living.
and mdm yap's coming back to teach us math!
yippee.
well.
monday was so cool!!
2912o3 rocks!
had brunch in school.
moogled around after going through with mrs chua.
bus was late.
lol.
the esplanade's inside was like so cool.
SO COOL!
the changing rooms are like. hotel rooms.
missing a bed.
lol.
the toilet! was so cute.
lol.
had a rehearsal. kinda relaxed.
the concert hall seemed big.
real big.
had dinner in the green room.
haha.
green rice. ha.
tuning and everything before we went in.
tuned again.
yeah.
liesel read that poem. erks.
then we played.
it was good.
=D
coda rocked!!
- smiles -
the best song of all [i think] was i will follow him.
had a huge impression on the folks watching.
lol.
- hugg myself -
oh. lots of sec fours were at the back watching.
lol!
anyway.
took a pic of the blue room under the stage. lol.
then khan rushed us back to school.
and rushed us out of school.
and i had to wait for my dad for about half an hour.
~~[shewassonicetome]~~
2912o3 rocked!! - huggs memories -
i love cgssb.

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12:05 AM