:D

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why?

everything changes all too fast
i'm confused.

who will be the one to lead me out of this whirlpool?

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thursday 150704
sad angry bursting fuming disappointed jealous weeping furious helpless gone`

it just depends what you match with.

hugs are miracles.
they will always be miracles.

friday 160704
rehearsals. only went for like 0.837484683283647325471547546325432 second. mum ranting about new tuition. 'its either you go todayy. or you go on sunday and miss your band fiesta.' but anyway. tuition was weirdd. the teacher was weird! big big specs. thin thin guy. one to one. yeee. anyway he seems to be decent. well i hope so.

saturday 170704
band. played one united people. nice nice song. cos the second is playing melody!! hah. -smilessss at belle.

went to pris yamaha again. her teacher was NICE enough to let me play ok. and that pris is crazy over my nemo song. hah i must play it for her next time we go my house. yay.

went my yamaha. my teacher don let her come in ): but anyway she had to go home le. electone was boringg. yucks. i wanna do can you feel the love tonight and big fun in the sun for arrangement! but for big fun need the conductor score. maybe use the clarinet parts can le. aghh still need original sumore. yucks. maybe shd change my mindd..

sunday 180704
band fiesta day. mum said i couldn't go band fiesta cos i didn't finish hmwk.

im glad they're hurt. i'm damn glad. for once i can show them that its not my fault. for once.

band fiesta. didn't know i could go. perhaps they were afraid of the blood.

yuhua was good. seriously good. their skirts are nice with the cute folds. ri was funny. hah yellow pages. acsi was bribery. seriously there wasn't a decent dance or whatever. just sweets and sweets. and i didn't even get one though. tk was ok. i like their skirt ends! and st andrews. the jailbirds. ugh.

glad yuhua won. yay for them. the trumpeter soloist is chio. but anyways.

went holland v swensens with parents and azura. blanjah her. ate loads. the ice cream was nice. sticky chewy chocolate. shall buy the cone next time. yupx. send azura home too.

finished up homework at home. rushrush.

monday 190704
yawning in school. band was ok. sectionals. at least some improvements. snr-jnr teaching again. jean almost ate my sweet! but in the end i gave it to her ): shall but packets and packets of sweets and give classmates and bandits. see how.. i'm saving for ehhem (pris and jan knows what.) oh and! left my tuner inside classrm!!! tian. that rubbish lock woman sucks. nvm.

tuesday 200704
cs now. the construction temporary metal barrier and metal decks for the school field fell on the fitness corner just now. whoo it looks so dangerous and so damn cool. and now that mr lim is finally outside observing the 'damage'. after me and chaitali went to tell the GO like 30 minutes ago. nvm. the GO aunties suck big time.

im thirsty for ice tea. or something nice to drink. anyway. rehearsals later. glad i can go (: hope i can change tuition this friday to sunday. just in case another rehearsal comes up on friday. but anyway. realised long time no go town. sigh. shall go isetan sometime to buy brynn sweets. lol.

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are you really the person i once knew.

life is like a sine graph =)
12:21 PM

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i don like the pic le.
i don like the font le.
i don like the colour le.

i'm going to make some changes to the template soon.

donno how soon.. -_-

take care everyones (:

life is like a sine graph =)
10:43 PM

disappointedd.

in YOU.

oh, you wouldn't read this anywayy. argh.

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btw i'm retard3!! (:

retard1-azura. retard2- jan. retard3- me. retard4-pris. we're the retards ~~clique~~ family! :D

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saturday 100704
met up with jan to go to school. took the back gate route. found out janice all over also got problem. eye prob. mouth prob. arm prob. leg prob. lung prob!! -_- anyways. band. played singapura medley. i don't like the song for a good reason. but nevermind. went through the fiesta pieces. the ketchup dancers had to prac like heaps of times so we played ketchup loads again and again. good practice anyway. then had to polish instrument. seemed like pt and brynn had some door lock problem going on while ms low was finishing her speech. laughable. so it was ankle socks in the end. the retards went away so me and pris went to her yamaha. hah. kept faking we were lost. but lucky i know the way thanks to pamela. at bangkit i started to complain about how hungry i was, but it died down after pris went into the (dreaded) room for the next 42 minutes. actually 38 minutes. we were late by 17 minutes and pris was let out 4 minutes early. so i sat outside the room for 38 minutes being guai and doing homework. aii. i knew pris was playing a trick. and i knew she knew i was faking. lol. anyway. went downstairs and decided to hail for taxi. stupid taxis went by. finally ((: got one and it was a damnit sucky driver. yuckk. pris would know what i meann. here goes.

me; to clementi central pls.
him; macs there ar?
me; uh ya.
him; which way?
me; any way.
him; what any way, all ard singapore isit?!

me; (thinks) omgg fck you!

seriously siao guy. curse here there. me and pris couldn't even talk. use the blank sms and type type. pris said "i think he is mad! maybe he is asking so many questions because he is kidnapping us!" make me laugh like crazy. and then the driver cursed the stupid little yellow train at the bukit panjang there cos it stopped the traffic. and he swerved and drove his taxi like crazy. and he asked this one question which made us laugh like madd.

'are you two sisters?'

when we laughed he ask why laugh. he prolly didn't see us laughing throughout the journey.

death ride. pris was so damn eager to get out of the damned taxi. yuck. death ride. we survived..

jan came along down and i treated them cones at macs. pris and i had a bit of a snack there. then they left for their section stuff and i went for yamaha. boringg. ended yamaha and went home. mum extremely pissed off. took bus to buona vista and dropped at tiong. bought hairband. think i looked like a siao zhar bo in the toilet when my hair was in a mess. anyway. took mrt to city hall, walked through citilink and went to esplanade. i've always loved the walk from city hall to esplanade. its so nice and cosy. anyway. met qinyi! long time no see her man. then saw dorothy and suiying. went into concert hall with them. lol bag check. door 1 was so near. anyways. sat next to liling. didn't record the first two songs cos the stupid mp3 player no batt. and jean was eyeing me. :| after one hour there was interval. didn't manage to see any familiar faces. went back and went out again to call my mum. went back and changed place to see the clarinets. but to no avail.. sigh. nvm. me and pris exchanging weirded stares during the second half. looking out for 'aunties'. lol. there was this fat guy whose violin bow string broke and it looked cute when he flicked it up. but he fixed it anyway. the other first violins were damn expressive. -stares into space, virtualising.. ok snap back. uh the clarinets were good! ahh i want that tone.. -drools dreamily. ok the soloist was good too. and the concert ended at 9.30. decided to go to hagen daz to have dinner. was chao hungry le. azura decided to come in the end. shared choc chip ice cream and cookies and cream ice cream with pris. the retards went walking at the seaside. so nice.. romantic. pris said good place to patoh. agree. we walked too far and saw too many obscene things going on at the 'park', so we turned around and jan and i started dancing ketchup. walked around and took pics. walked to city hall mrt and went home. too tired to do anything le.. slept like. zzz. yeahh.

sunday 110704 band fiesta
morning went to swensens at holland v and was shocked to see nobody there. in the end the klarinettes were just snacking at kfc. did some homewk. then went to swensens -__- for the section brunch. brynn kept on stepping on my foot cos she thought it was the table leg. so there was footsies. then a lot of rubbish. ok. my food came late cos they apparently forgot to take order. basically a lot of socializing. went to the flowershop ard the corner with sar to buy pretty flowers for my pretty beloved ones. but unfortunately the auntie wasn't really pretty. in fact she was petty. yucks man she don wanna do business for 'kids' like me then suan la. tell me. heck. some family of four walk pass and she asked them to buy. so sweet-tongued. yucks. to us, just brush us off. nevermindd. she even anyhow cut and anyhow wrap the stupid rubbish brown paper and anyhow put the aluminium foil. sucker. nvm. the flowers were pretty anyways.

walked from holland v to the bus stop and took 111 to school. sighh was late for ard 30 mins? haii. then i was wearing pe tee so i put on the shirt? and it looked damn stupid. i was yellow. anyway. went through the songs and mrs chua left us with abt 1 hour to get all the stuff settled. i was a nice little girl to help everyone cut their damned running threads. ugh i hate running threads. i said 'any running ends?' to meiling and she was like 'i don't think so..' but her skirt was full of them! then i just went ahead cutting when she suddenly said 'ohhh running ends, i thought running ANTS!' i was like -_-. yeah peiting's chokes faints dies. lol. yeah then everything was rushed. tbone amira killed my hair, enjia and nurul intoxicated it too. amira pull like siao for the french plaits. ej and nurul gelled until my hair turned purple and brynn was like staring with biggy eyes. took 3 instrus and went up the bus. then the stupid bus took a big circle around the estate and in the end came back into school. -_- lol.

walked in from the carpark when we reached there. people were staring.. (at our skirts). anyway. decided to tompang the beeg grassy space behind the stage. swiss cottage was doing their rehearsal. got in tune and everything. then it was (unfortunately or fortunately, i donno..) five oclock. swiss cottage started playing the same songs at their concert last week. hah they were good. me and nurul 'fought off stress' by dancing to the music. lol. my electone teacher came to see mee!! ahhaa! and pamela was behind me in the queue, then my teacher was like 'haloo!! -chitty chatty-' i was like shhhhhhh!!! then pause. then i said eh she plays electone also!! (nudge pam.) and my teacher was like 'oh yahh you're miss wong's student right!!' see how famous you've become pam ((: lol.

then it was our turn. wanna thank all the seniors for cheering for us. (: also all the sec ones who helped out with the bubbles. and the cute dancers who did the ketchup. but.. aii. feel guilty. bad. sigh. i didn't reach my goal.. but nvm right! weiling and clarice we must jiayou! (:

we came down. and after that everything was too relaxed and in a mess. i donno. met leon!! hah leon! was so exited that i burbled and didn't know what i was talking. lol. leon and his poor swiss band donno where to sit, they stood for the rest of the whole performance at the side of the stage. lol.. then we packed up. sheryan was crying.. and it was a depressing aura. but i sought permission to look for yiqiong and my nice nice sl said yess. heh. i didnt know yiqiong would be there! i didn't even remember nanyang was gonna play. then when shermin said the irish skirts belonged to nanyang i was thinking of whether yiqiong would be around.. since she once said long ago she was in nycb.. but anyway! went to look for the saxes in nanyang when they were queueing up and almost knocked over their propelled cymbal in excitement. i was like 'is there a yiqiong in the saxaphone section'. tian arh the seniors look so gong and obiang. they look so damn nerdy! -__- then they don wanna talk one. just move their head towards yiqiong. first reaction was -pause. staree.... then -scream!! haha. not me. her. then chitty chatty then shhhhhhh... then kkk see you later byeeeeee! and i ran back to the band. happied until almost knocked over their propelled cymbal.. again. -_- then settled down on bigg patch of grass in audience. yay.

people were crying and stuff. ms low anti climax, tell us don cry this is public display arh. lol.. aii. i was bounding around with a smile on my face and halfway erasing the light grey cloud above my head when i spotted em crying. aii. hugs. hugs and hugs. eh btw em take care. someone ask her to speak and you'll know what her throat is like now. anyway. azura was sitting with isabelle then she started crying?? ms low anti climax again. then hugs. hugs are miracles.. good and bad. the light grey cloud became a big heavy black cloud. aii. when azura is supposed to be the one crying on me, i was the one bursting into tears? nvm. im stable enough to yank that stupid black cloud away and be strong. and after that.. yeah.

i guess i felt a little stupid.. but anyway. i was just very disappointed with her. maybe i'm just jumping into conclusions, but what seems to me, seems to be true. i'm disappointed. after i trusted you to be a nice girl. i thought you changed. yes you did change but you're not doing it for the correct reason. i don't know what you did there but i don't think you knew what you were doing too. i don't know. i'm not, like, jealous. i'm just plain disappointed you had to do that with the wrong mindset. i'm sorry but i don't think i can place my trust on you anymore. you'll just abuse it like you did. i'm sorry.

met yiqiong after her performance. her tenor is so cute! but anyway. went to the food stall and bought coke (had horrible side effects the next day in the toilet). walked around with jan. met yiqiong again lol. chitty chatty one arh. lol. then we played with bubbles! tian arh so cute! and some cheeky idiotic little girl came around and fling up our skirts. tsk. then we had to leave. pris had that cute expression on her face when she said 'uhh the retards will be going home tgt.' haha. ok we boarded the bus and the woodwinds only had such a beeeg bus. sadded journey back.. settled everything and went home. but mum was outside mobil.. so i had to leave the retards. yeah. bad mood at home. finished homework. replayed the finale 'firebird' of the syno concert over and over again in bed. listened to it to sleep. yeah. sigh..

monday 120704
either i listened to too much music or it was plain sweat, my ears got all red and itchy. nevermind.

was half asleep during assembly. then had 2.4 during pe. 3 casualties again. wanted to puke but nvm. bad run. ): anyway. was a rather sloppy day. yucks. sigh. band. combined warmup then sectionals after 876367471435 million years. yay. sigh my tone is laopok. ): had to take sec ones. jieling damn gong one. but anyway. band ended. went home with the retards. bought a lot of stuff at mobil. walked to redhill and took mrt. yeah. quite a normal-ish day but anyway. big red itchy ears. yuck.

tuesday 130704
its chaitali's bday. (: was basically a boring day except after school. there was optional band prac which ended around almost 5. then the retards went to mobil and we decided to split up. jan pei-ed azura home in a cab (good luck to them omgg). me and pris took another cab to little india (you must be thinking go there for what and so late le). yeah uh it cost me 10.50 for everything there?! cos the taxi fare was 8.50 then the stupid indian flower garland cost 2 bucks?! broke. me and pris were like sitting at the entrance of the little india mrt and eating my lormaikai. then i dug the spoon in and the lightning came. i put in my mouth the thunder came. -_- whatever. went into the mrt station and waited for the train. meanwhile pris and i played with our shadows inside the rail. lol. there was one of pris' action which looked like cursing with middle finger. lol. the train came and we stood for the rest of the journey. did lots of weird things on the train. like my triple eyelids thing. i do 3,2 then pris do 4, 2 then her file dropped and she caught it in time. ask me and i'll show you priscilla's big stunt. LOL hah. damn funny. rolling eyes 360 deg. then at outram park we passed a train cos it was tuna and sardines. but the next one was too so we just squeezed in with a lot of spatial trouble from pris. -_- anyway. rubbished all the way to buonavista. think i laughed the most. laugh until crazy. nvm. typical sam and pris. heheh.

let sam's index no. be x.
let pris' index no. be y.

4x = y.

hahaha. guess! its like shockingg!

wednesday 140704
dance was nice today. but donno whether the group can meet. yeah. chinese was weird. the stupid garland stank like shit. gave ms tan the bangles. hah. left for math rem cos band rm wasn't open. after rem went for band. practiced in the store for donno how long. and i didn't meet or see anything. heyhey pam. there's nothingg.. or it was either sleeping. kk nvmm. prac with the player then cannot. ): anyway not allowed so i'll just do it at home next time. yeah. went home with azura and her friend. ate lormaikai againnn.. i think gonna have side effects le. anyway. was guai tonight and finished most of the homework except music science and a few others that have late deadlines. yeah. okay finally finish blogging. -_-

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i want to trust you
but you're just showing me that you're not worth it

band tmr. chao.

life is like a sine graph =)
10:40 PM

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it hurts.
it hurts so much.

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owh. i cut myself.
twice. yukk.
blame it on the safety pin from antigone and jan's protective amulet (its damn 'ling' ok. if you get what i mean.). weird thing is that the pin cut my left middle finger and the amulet cut my right middle finger. one at the first joint, the other at the second. spooky.

am i that dirty-minded??! o_0

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monday 050704
forced the antigone people to come at 8. elizabeth came at 9. siti at 10. did the stupid thing until 12 plus. dad fetched jenhui anna and me to mrt. jenhui went home to put her stuff and the rest just went home la. etc. went to boonlay to pick azura up since they're not going with me. (uhh..) i'm officially azura's atm. -_- went ps and ate lunch after rotting around. went spotlight but don have any wire. ate lunch at bk. i now say that bk is not exactly nice to eat. anyway. used similar excuse to lilian's for letting azura come home. rot and play clarinet. rot and play com. rot and play electone. yuckss. my electone sucked cos azura was sitting in a very crucial place. lol only pris can understand. [she was sitting around the lower pedal octave area. aii.] sent azura out to take a cab. big mistake. azura late for her family gathering. stupid taxis donno where they go. when i want them they're not here. aghh. took the taxi to the destination and back again. taxi uncle praised me for 'being a kind soul; sned my friend back home'. lol!

tuesday 050704
was a damn gong day. had antigone. screwed up lines. bleh. lost my precious lil' torch. aghh. hate antigone. whateverr. went tiong with azura and jan. oh yeah this was the day i got the two cuts on my middle fingers. went popular to buy files. history and personal. stupid band file ain't here yet. in the kind of situation whereby i came to some place to buy something but spent all my money on food and thus was short of money. shucks. thanks to jan for the money.

wednesday 060704
quite a rush day. music rocked! hah this ms chua from raffles laselle SIA art school came to teach us dance! omgg. my ambition is to go there and be a professional like her! uhh specializing in music la. i suck at dance. anywayy we learnt parapara and this chao sophisticated dance with lots of slow and sudden actions. chim. hah i will master number 5 by weekend! yay. anyway lessons end at 2, immediately went for math rem until 2.45 then self prac till 4.30. was chaoji hungry after that, so decided to go town to eat or something. then the communication prob again. azura says tanglin and i don get what she says cos im half deaf. ya. heaps of big mistakes. :\\ bought tako pachi and dinner. cost like loads. and we were broke (more like i was broke, cos azura was broke all alongg.) after dinner. so it was like the same situation as tuesday. come to this place to buy hole puncher but spent all my money on food. aghh. feel damn sadd and guilty. aii.

thursday 070704
chaoji maluatedd. was playing like in the middle of the fiesta songs then mrs chua gave me and emily that -scary- look. so we had to go up to her and sing. which was mad cos the majors were different in the actual song and the one we are playing is too low to go high, and too high to go low. if you get what i mean. brynn and pt couldn't see conducting (i bet the rest as well) so me and em squattedd. then mrs chua said nooo. aghh. maluateddd. sang twice or something. em we're deadd. o_o anywayy. went home with azura. i just cant believe i took all the way to boon lay then back to buona vista again. im madd. yeah i am.

friday 080704
happy day. slept a bit during classes. i was totally awake during d+t! (: yay. trained voice with emily during recess and lunch. went for english oral. ate the stupid inedible chicken patty with spaghetti. and garlic bread. was in the middle of garlic bread, then i realised i was having oral! so i threw the bread away (it was awfully cold anyway) and started binging on fruit lol. mango guava apple. solved the whole damn problem. mrs wong was my tester, freaked out a little before i went out but i guess God took care of me and let me have a smooth journey through the exam. ughh. mrs wong damn cute. she said 'cannot tell anyone about what we talk ok samantha??' when we finished the whole thingg. then i was like uhhhhh ok. was telling myself to get out of the place asap. had heaps of rubbish to carry home. books props. handed up the journals (a week late le eh. anna and esh!!) and saw pris wandering around the parade sq like lost sheep. said that azura and jan disappeared. so went toilet and made a call. luck and fate decided that jan pick up the phone (really really fated) and so they were in the mpr. saw the sec ones do their ketchup dance and i played the stoney melody on the electric piano. ended ard 5 then we went down to eat some stuff while pris could gape at her sweetmeat.

went town cos pamela asked us to (aww. we're such nice lil kidds.) and thought i lost my mp3 player. found it eventually and we ate at bk. everybody ate except my dear sl. jan said i was addicted to the ketchup dance. nooo i just like it thats all :| aii. azura kept on making pris laugh like saying. 'pris. laugh.' and pris just laughedd. when i said 'pris. don laugh.' she still laughed. shenjingbing. lol. pamela and pris went off first to their electone concert thinggy. pam's mum is chio ((: and we met aishah! lol aishah appeared in bk just like that with her sisters and said hi. then we went to orchard mrt and had to rush for the train cos i was indecisive about the hole puncher? (badd. bad me.) but anyway i was smart enough to get into the train (without forgetting the two retards with me). oh yes they're retards. they saw this baby and started oogling over her. used my phone and took picture etc. retards. lazybum azura finally tried on my shoe. and it was too bigg. then i had to sit in between the two retards on the way home. retard1 was on the phone and retard2 was dying to get my bday. whatever. i'm a retard too. we're all retards (that includes you, pris!).

tired. -yawnn.

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im wondering
why things turn out this way
was it cos of me?

i wonder.
and i cry.

life is like a sine graph =)
10:58 PM

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life is like a sine graph =)
9:25 PM

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one tagg.

moni.// hey. you've got a pretty blog too. (just that i don bother to actually go around and tag.. lol.) and anyway. yueqi was yining's angel last time. and our whole class knows yueqi cos yining was always pulling her ponytail. (yueqi had one last time.) yup. and we always say hi and talk last time. yeah. so.. yeah. i know her. lol. -_- cya.

life is like a sine graph =)
11:19 PM

on saturday mrs chua said
'put your differences outside the band room door, come in and play together as one.'

im inspired. finally waking up. i'm gonna be a new me. a better person than i was before.

.. you?

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wednesday 300604
probably a boring day. i forgot. an anxious day. ahh. sigh.

thursday 010704
~~no wonder she treated me like shit that day.~~ yeah. anyway. had a feeling that something bad would happen. a bad phenomenon. but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise! (: i have the sixth sense man. i'm finally back to where i belong! (: yay. hugs to my dear old file.

friday 020704
boring school day. d+t is okay. concert was silly. even if we joined, it would still be a silly concert. ughh. anyway. went redhill mrt with xiangmei. had pbl to do. suddenly rmb i had to had up o'lvl music form to ms low by friday (thanks to a reminder call frm mum. mum i luv yuuu.) left my stuff with xiang at the station. decided to use back gate route. then saw the 132 come. then i ran back. then the 132 went before i even crossed the road. -_- so i had to use the back gate route anyways. run and walk. huff and puff until crazy. think my stamina died during the hols. anyway. went back. called ms low and handed up the stuff. run back to the mrt station. as in yeah the walking distance. no bus sighted so just run along. blehh.

xiang said she spent her time eating the sweets given by various teachers. oh yeah. shall state some. mdm yap gave us a sugary sticky gummi lolli. ms tan gave us lollies. goh ws gave us packs of chicken ring super ring cheese balls etc. bleh. someone gave us a pen. everything is mixed up btw. anyway. went to tiong to have lunch at food court. went back home and started on our project. took a damn long time to bathe and get down to work. took photos (shall upload when i find the time) of the model (don think wai. its a box for a table model.) and food. yeah. left home with xiang at around 7. dad dropped us off at buonavista mrt. brought xiang around and showed her the bus stop. yeah. called/sms-ed azura cos we were both late. decided to eat at clementi.

pretty azura came empty handed. decided to scare her. lol. just walked up the steps next to her without her knowing and grabbed her elbow. red carpet lol! surprisingly, she wasn't shocked.. sigh. lol. can be bride and bridegroom. bridegroom long hair. bride short hair. -_- lol. cos our clothes colour same. yeah. but anyway. ate some stuff at macs then took bus to ngee ann poly. didn't even know where it was. so i was too paranoid and stopped at s'pore institute of management. found out need to take down one more bus stop. run there. reach at around 8.32pm. then the trumpeters called the people in. surprisingly they didn't tear our tickets. (relate to later part of story.) the saxes were good. i like the ensem. azura kept on saying no discipline nt good etc. some i agree. but i think we didn't hear the real good stuff cos we were too far back. yeah. so.. too bad la. sigh. recorded all the songs. (plus the encore. it sounded like march-together chimmified.) end of concert. yixin went to talk to her. ehhem. lol. went back stage to find but couldn't. instead i saw my camp friend! lol! i didn't know leon was in swiss cottage! whoo. poor leon was crying le. ahh he always does in the camp. lol. yixin found her friendd in the front and was saying halfway. then she started pointing at us! gosh. but anyway. yixin your frienddd. looks quite ok. lol. if you get what i mean.

went to bus stop after that. walk like one big circle. but anyway. was in the kind of walking mood.. so didn't matter. yixin azura and me were discussing the concert on the bus when we (me and azura) realised that the concert actually started at 7.30. when pamela told me 8.30. and i couldn't know cos i didn't have the ticket on me. oh well. too bad for us. we missed half of the songs. sigh. anyway. went to the same clementi macs again and waited for my dad. dad said could fetch both azura and yixin home. uh. azura was sleepy. yixin kept on listening to her friendd's flute solo. (need the mic one. heh azura hor.) as in again and again. madness. dropped off azura first. then turned around to telok blangah and dropped yixin off. yixin talked in loudloud voice cos her ear was listening to loudloud music. aii. -__- went home and slept like a pig.

saturday 030704
went to sch at 9. set up instru. went through some pieces and i got upset for no reason. aii. sam you should learn to be less sensitive and be wiser. yup. doesn't matter. ended at ard 12 plus. finished keeping instru (like clarinet is always the slowest section.. aii.) then hug azura. felt abit better. left bag in sch for tanglin mall. went there (the whole band went there) and ate delifrance after walking ard looking for food like lost sheep. me and azura are pigs. we ate 2 whatever puffs each. like yeah. crazy. lol. shared a drink. at least that kept me full almost the whole day. rush back to school and i went to buy munchies. jamie stole a coke (notty jammy..) and i was left with the chips, azura's coke and my big carton of apple aloevera juice. lol. went up the bus with the section. changed seats again and again. in the end sat with azura cos sharing the earphones. clarice jabbering on and on about the next day etc with her straight face lol. cherlynn playing with my cam phone. gwen making us laugh.

reached the stadium. just happened that i sat at a very 'strategic' place. weiling on my left, gen on right. one can talk a lot (on rubbish), another can talk alot (like philosophy). heh. so it was kinda hard to get away. yeah. sorry azura. the stupid ceremony started damn late. drops of rain came and went. yeah like.. ugh. the bands came out and played. deyi and pingyi+springfield was very soft. very. couldn't hear. tk was like. yeah rocks la. bowen was great too. tk won. and yeah. (there's more abt tk later.) ended with a mass dance thingy and girl soloist. went back on the bus sitting with gen. section was playing the xiao-(last name) game. so i'm xiao xin. which means be careful. o_0 no comment. gen was xiao ching. xingtong was xiao tong. (became da tong in the end) anyway. clarice and shuangying borrowed my mp3 player. think clarice is crazy about the blues factory. and she is totally paranoid sometimes. lol. hah.

anyway. regretted not sitting at gwen there with azura. cos apparently something happened. azura was like.. not her usual self. i guess something really bad happened. but anyway. take care yeah? cos i don wanna see you being a sad girl worrying abt stuff and thinking too much. dont become like me. yeah. used the baby-burp kinda hug thing. this one only clarice can understand. lol. went up the bus and dropped at taka. ate at the wisma macs. tell you. we were totally broke. we scraped and scratched our wallets. out came two bucks in total. bought nuggets for me and azura. stupid ezlink card had only 2.20. besides, i had finished the whole carton of apple aloevera juice and azura wasn't feeling too good to eat. so we just made off with the pathetic nuggets. and azura with her ice cream. yeah.

went to the toilet and waited for azura. then continued walking through the passage to taka. the in the middle i suddenly realised we were walking in the wrong direction. turned around. this weird girl who looked like either pamela or cheryl (the twins from the camp) stared at me while holding on to her boyfriend who was wearing pink. yuck. anyway. the whole world was silent. walked from isetan there backwards to the macs there. then through the mrt station into tangs and then scotts, then wheelock. brushed thought hordes of donkeys, elephants, cows, sheep.. (in simplified words, people.) in borders. at the end of borders we waited for my dad (who kindly brought azura home again. yay. hug.) for more than 45 mins. but anyway. talked a lot. more like i was doing all the rubbish talking. yeah. in the car too. but in the end it wasn't exactly relavant. lol. paiseh. anyway. hope some of the stuff i said can help in your thinking yeah. it rained halfway in the journey. so i could sense azura was getting sleepy. like who wouldn't wanna sleep on a rainy night in a confortable cosy car. lol. decided to keep quiet and let azura sleep. was kinda tired too. dropped her off and went home. rushed to finish stuff (which i didn't need to hand up anyway).

sunday 040704
the big day! big big big day. big day for me, for clarice, for everyone! yay. reached akltg around 9 plus. registered and gave clarice the books. clarice, who is as paranoid as usual, came running to me when i just entered the place. she was jabbering about 'senior' and 'your that friend' and 'also in camp' etc. then i was like huh? lol.. spotted weiling all of a sudden and realised what clarice was talking about. man. i din know weiling went for the camp too! she went for the first week. yayyee. another mad girl in the akltg-cgs club. lol.. now only consists of the three of us. there's one more crescentian called janice in sec 3 i think. but anyway! we're all in band and weiling is in my section!! (x yayy! -squeals. lol.. spent the whole morning catching up with my group and doing a science mmp. then there was this A academy thing going on and the shields intro-ing themselves. the three of us are gonna join the ang-moh's group. lol. moon paladins. heh.

anyway. lunch. was surprised that they supplied us with lunch! lunch was great. it rocked. i finished my veg. lol. and the jelly was weirdd. like tasteless. pearlyn made a face. heh. but the lychee was nice. then went around to collect phone numbers and we decided to dedicate a song to our coaches shikin and zhiqin. then i (being the super ego smartass) went to innovatively use a piece of napkin from lunch and wrote the dedication. 'thank you for everything, we love you always!' shikin came and hugged us when she heard our dedication (zhiqin was prolly somewhere else doing his work.. lol). the deejay even said something like 'this dedication came to me as a very interesting one.. on a piece of tissue..' then we realised it was ours.. lol! had a really great time.

then we had to sign up for the A academy thing. mum was very negative about it so i just left there with this sadd face. and cried in the car. cos i really wanted the be in the A academy. and it was cheap too. just that my mum said she and dad were hungry. so i was thinking they were selfish. but anyway. doesn't matter. i lose in the end. always. went to harbourfront for parents' lunch. just badmooded there and kept on repeating the swiss cottage sax ensem. went home and tidied things up. but today has been quite unproductive. crap.. just realised. very unproductive. alright. sigh.

anyway. today was great! oh and pearlyn is in tk! and she told me that since tk band won syf marching, the whole school gets one week of holiday! omgg! its just so great! im like damn happy for them. whoo! better call jiajiun sometime and tell him we're all joining moon paladins. heh. we rock. gregors rock. totallehh. heh.

wheee. akltg rocks. gregors rock. IAG2 rocks. adam rocks. ramesh rocks. stuart rocks. gery rocks (uhhhh.. ok.). shikin and zhiqin totally rock!! yayy. huggx everyone. gonna miss everyone like so much eh. hope my group's going for the success coaching on saturdays. aii. weiling, clarice and i can't go for operation blueprint cos its on the band fiesta day. sighh. but anyway! im a happy happy girl with a happy happy life cos i wanna be a happy happy person for the rest of my happy happy life! whee! lol.

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